I swear there is something wrong with me. My wife comes down from her nap, just after the girls had. We all feel a little better afer our naps. I myself even collasped into a small one. Once the after nap achey wore off from mine, then I started to feel better. This is why i don't usually take nap.
Anyhow, I would like to know whats wrong with me that I can't go 5 minutes without remembering what someone said, especially my wife. We were in an embrace, I was focused on her, and she told me what she wanted for dinner, and dessert. It sounded good. It wasn't a couple minutes, and I ask her what we were going to have for dinner. My stomach just dropped, and it came back to me what we were going to have. Why do I do that?!?! WTF.. I mean I love my wife, and would walk from hell to high water to do anything for her. I value my wifes opinion more beyond what she realizes, especially financially, and child-rearing. I just wish my mouth would show it.
All I have managed to do is put my foot in my mouth and hop around like an ass making my wife feel lower than dirt, it just makes things worst when the kids are especially uncoorporative, and it make for one unhappy spouse. I don't blame her, I think growing up I didn't have much a voice in the family being the youngest. Though that I no excuse for my behavior now, and I just want to die. I want a fricken life rewind button. I know I could have been so much better husband in that last 5 days let alone probably the last 5 months. Been more attentive to my wife, tried more to inticipate her thoughts and her actions, so that I could be more like her and juggle so much stuff talking to people to get Shae better off at school, and in her future life with her eyes. I don't really know what I would do with out her, I have grown to rely on her for so many things.
She makes sure the bills get paid on time, and appropriately.
She makes sure no one screws with any of the kids, and me
She remembers so very many things, and trys to remind me which happens way to often, and that frustrates her to no end.
She makes sure all the kids, and pets are healthy on a daily bases.
She looks out for ever opportunity to increase the benefits of the children either learning or acquiring the means to be better now and into the future.
She takes care me. Fixes my hair, clothes, reminds me to put on sunscreen, and my hat.
She helps suggest daily meals, because I might be able to make it, but I don't seem to have that much imagination to think of things to fix in a week to help everyone get their pyramid of food items, fruit, veggy, meat, etc..
Right now I think all i really do is keep the dail tone, doing some cleaning, preparing the meal the pets and kids, and she does the rest. I WANT to be a better huband and better in this family. Right now it seems a bit like 70/30 rather than 50/50.
But still why do i do it, all I ever want to do is try to be a strong provider to my family, and do anything for my kids and my wife. Do what ever it takes to keep them health and happy. But ALL i end up doing is misunderstanding my kids, and totally putting off my wife. I just want to crawl into a hole, and be the damn dog/pig that i am.
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