how did you become so jaded?
Out on the APC board, there is an article from a Korean Adoptee that just blows my mind... What the buckets (Mama's trying really hard not to swear on your blog, Aubree!) happened to make that girl so jaded?
This girl is beyond angry... she needs some serious counselling. Yes, her life had a rocky start because her biological family couldnt care for her and she spent several years in an orphanage. And her adopted parents should have been strung up for being the racist boohas that they were. But for gosh sakes, get thee some counselling child!
What will I do if my child refers to me as an Abductor Parent instead of just a parent that loves her? What will I do if my child thinks that I'm just some white person that had the $$$ to 'buy' a child. Holy God, I dont know...
I do know that MY daughter will be born half way around the world and that I have worried about her for years and years before I will have ever met her. I love my child even though I am just some pitifully unprepared white chick trying to prepare as best I can to give my child the life she deserves. I will do whatever I can to provide her every opprotunity to be proud of her life with us and her life without us when she is out on her own. I hope to God above that I will be able to give her what she needs - I dont want her to ever get to the point where she feels like the girl that wrote that article.
To the bitter one - you're life is what you make of it. If you want to wallow in the self-pity that you have created your life to be... you go right ahead and wallow honey. Maybe someday you will find the peace that you seek in your life and realize most people are NOT evil for wanting the children that have blessed their lives.
class #1
We attended a class put on by our agency Saturday in Ankeny. There were two other couples adopting from China, one single lady that HAD adopted from China, 1 couple going to adopt two from Russia, one half of one couple that was going to adopt from Kankistan (sp?), and one lady I dont know where or what :)
It was a great class! We touched on the following subjects:
- sensory intergration issues
- attachment issues
- how to parent with love and logic
- life books
- transracial adoption
It was so nice to meet people in person that are adopting too! Not that it isnt nice to talk to folks over the internet about adoption, but its super nice to meet people in the flesh that are working towards the same goal. I kinda got the feeling though that some were not as prepared as some of the rest of us and they had been in the paperwork loop a lot longer than some of us. Prepare people! Prepare! I cannot stress enough on the importances of researching worst case scenario - you can do nothing but help your child by picking up a damn book or taking a stroll out on the 'net!
and now a few words from the Good Book :)
Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west. Isaiah 43:5
Aint that just awesome :)
Chosen
by Teri Harrison
Longing for a child to love,
I'd wish upon the stars above.
In my heart I always knew,
A part of me was meant for you.
I think how happy we will be,
Once I adopt you,& you adopt me.
I dream of all the joy you'll bring,
Imagining even the littlest things.
The way it will feel to hold you tight
& tuck you in every night.
The drawings on the refrigerator door
& childhhod toys across the floor,
The favorite stories read again & again
& hours of fun with make believe frinds.
The day you took my outstretched hand
A journey ended but our love began.
Still mesmerized by your sweet face
Still warmed inside by our first embrace.
I promised to give you a happy home
& a loving family all your own.
A house you've now made complete
with laughter,smiles & tiny feet.
A parent is one who guides the way
Know I will be there every day
Rest easy as each night you sleep
A lifetime of love is yours to keep
Longing for a child to love
I'd wish apon the stars above.
In my heart I always knew
A part of me belonged to you.
our tax dollars at work
Well... our fine government has proved once again that it does a fine job with our tax dollars. Our agency caseworker sent me a message today - sounds like the folks working at the Secretary of State havent the faintest clue on how to follow directions. She asked that four of our documents be certified a certain way - the Secretary of State department has completed all four WRONG a sum total of TWO TIMES. M has had to send them back a third time to be fixed... all I can say is 'Oye Vey! What is getting a birth certificate, ssn, etc going to be like!). Incompetent nincompoops!!
The rest of the documents have been sent to the Chinese Consulate in Chicago to be authenticated. As soon as Secretary Skippy get the other ones right, they will be forwarded to Chicago. M said we're probably going to have a Aug 1 date. I am soooooooooooo excited!!! :D
To Aubree when she's reading this as a big girl - yes honey, Mama is cynical and bitter about people who dont do their jobs and are standing in the way of my fighting my way towards you!! :)
may I please have my baby now?
I've got the last of the wall paper border I was waiting on - may I please have my baby now?
Aubree's room is going to look spiff when its all done if I do say so myself! WooWoo!!
Referals for June and July are coming in like gangbusters! There are rumors that the August ones will be coming in the last part of July :)
This week I'm trying to figure out how to save up enough to take 12 weeks of leave instead of 6 when Aubree comes home.... I'm still working on it so I'll let you know when I get it figured out!
Esther's Song
by Martha Hackenberger
There's a little girl who's waiting
In the Public Market Square,
Straining to hear her mother's voice
(Her mother left her there).
She's four and all alone now
As the voices fade away.
Still listening for her mother's voice,
She longs to hear her say,
"It's time to go on home now,
The hour is getting late,
The sun sets on the mountain,
I'm sorry you had to wait."
She senses that the sun is gone,
And the day has turned to night.
As tears stream down her sweet round face,
She prays with all her might:
"Dear Mama please come back for me
I waited all day long.
I'm scared, and hungry, all alone,
I'm listening for your song:"
"It's time to go on home now,
The hour is getting late,
The sun sets on the mountain,
I'm sorry you had to wait."
There's a little girl who's waiting
She's six, and how she's grown.
She's hoping daily in her heart
For a family of her own.
And half way ‘round the world I heard
Every tear and every word,
I'll come to bring you home to stay
And finally you will hear me say,
"It's time to come on home now
The hour is getting late,
The sun sets on the mountain,
I'm sorry you had to wait."
(Copyright 2001 Martha Hackenberger)